Bad Hair Day !!

Attention span

No. Not 30 seconds..Its three days for me. But I am back after a small break. Just like in the adverts. Anyways, this evening has been particularly bad. I was supposed to go to my first yoga class. And then to meetup with some friends. And then call up atleast three other friends whose call I couldnt take over the weekend. But I forgot not one, not two but to do all of them. And maybe a few more which I will remember, no doubt in next coming days.
It was a monday today. But as I came home this evening, I picked up couple of nice fillets of Whiting from supermarket, along with "Red palm and canola oil" (just following the offers in supermarket) and proceeded to cook them with all my vigour. So folks I give you recipe for "macchee mohito" i.e The fish by mohit.
Ingredients
150 gms of Whiting
2-3 cloves of garlic - nicely chopped
freshly grounded black pepper
salt, red pepper
100 gms cherry tomatoes - clice them in halves
4-5 small mushrooms - vertically sliced
and my special "Red palm and canola oil" - 40 ml
Indian garam masala
a lemon and my sercet weapon one a chilled bottle of corona dry

Preparation
Open the beer and pour it in a glass and start sipping. Remember to leave 50 ml in the bottle.
Put the fish on aluminium foil and sprinke salt, black pepper and lemon juice on it. Oven cook it on 190 degrees for 5-7 minutes, making sure its nearly cooked when you take it out.

Fry the garlic in oil then add tomotos and mushrooms. Cook on on low heat for 5-7 minutes. Add spices followed by beer. Now transfer the (nearly cooked) fish carefully into the pan. Stir tenderly so the the fillets dont break whilst making sure the fish soaks all the juices. Cover and let it simmer for another 5 minutes and voila, there you are. Macchee mohito is there for you to enjoy :)

Water water everywhere...

Yup, it had to happen. Okay I confess. I went to a party, a "singles" party no less, last night to celebraate my singledon with so many others. Well it was in the hope, that I might that special someone, or the one before her.... And NOT to get laid. Not that there's anything wrong in it, But its high time, I accept that such things dont happen to me. They never have and never will. We were chatting at my work today, when someone mentioned that while he was on a business trip, some random woman in his hotel invited him to come and stay for breakfast. To this, one other guy remarked, that even prostitues avoid him.. Some weird people I have at work. But I digress, Anyways so I went to this party. It was a students common rooms so was big and spacious. And there were thrity odd people there. But no, of all the 15-16 single girls in the room, I couldnt chat up even one of them. Now how is that !!

Meditation zzz..

Is that whats its all about !! For past four weeks beginning Burns Night, I have been going there but to what end ! The folks are warm & friendly but dont have the kick-ass moves I was hoping for. They have a few exercises but nah..not working for me. And I am not sure we are on same wavelengths ! What they speak of going into a thoughtless awareness, I take it as trying to sleep while sitting straight, which aint easy..well getting to sleep is an issue for me anyways which is one of the reasons I started looking for something to calm me down. The other reason was I find it hard to switch off from work even after couple of hours, which is almost time to go to bed sometimes..Loads of time after leaving work, I keep thinking about things I didnt do that day, what must I do first thing next morning and so forth. I even mentally compose my emails to save me time next day..
And its not sad..Thats not the way I want it to be, and I am working on it...The problem is the minute I stop caring, I dont give a shit..which is the other extreme..God, why does it always rain on me !!

PhD

In past couple of years I have bumped into more than my share of PhDs and post-docs research fellows. I always thought that these guys must be really brainy. Not anymore. Anyways, the point being, I was wondering if I can be one. There are loads of reasons, why I shouldnt, couldnt or wouldnt be one. Most notable being, its lot of hard work to get accepted at one. And then get some decent scholarships. And ofcourse, there are so many to apply to. As one of my friends explained to me yesterday I can choose from economics to rocket science, its a very hard decision. I need some help and some brains and some luck.
Apart from that, once you are in full time job - the prospect of leaving that to go back to student life isnt very tempting. There are some exciting times but I'd still have the money please.
Why should I do one ? Because my career isnt going anywhere. This might be one of those things I need to rise from junior to middle to higher management. You tell me, how many senior vice presidents you know who only have a measly batchelors degree ? (Not counting those who married their boss's ex-wives !!)
Check out
http://www.findaphd.com/
http://www.jobs.ac.uk/jobtype/student/ -- Keyword - PhD
http://www.nature.com/naturejobs/index.html

Liar Liar - Pants on Fire ..

Its official. Blogger has moles !!
It only took two days after I created my first post that I was discovered by my friend. Now how did this happen. I guess, even the almighty blogger (read google) caved in to the pressure by my friends, and handed all my personal information to them !! What a shame..I had expected more spine from them..
Anyways, the good news is I have just received my camera, a digital one no less..
http://www.pentax.co.uk/product_details.php?divisionid=2&productid=1237&parentid=16
Just installed all the drivers and took couple of pictures. Didnt come well though. too much light. Maybe I overcharged the battery :)
Anyways, I havent done walks and other things I say I do for ages. So I guess the time is ripe. And I have the excuse as well. Except that going for walks alone isnt very exciting. Note to self - This time next year - find a walking partner :)

Worst fears ..

Do you know what yours are ? Do I know mine ? And even if I did, would I accept them honestly ?
Lets see :)
Am I afraid of dying? Nah, not really..There are truck loads of things to do and see, but relatively, I have had a more fortunate existence. So no, not waking up tomorrow'd be alright.
Though the biggest shame would be I have never given my parents anything other than pain, suffering and embarassment. I am one of those who often shout at their mum. She never said anything, first it was her husband and now her eldest son. She has taken it all. Whenever I am frusturated by my own limitations or anything else, and happen to speak to her, somehow I would unleash all my fury at her. Tell her its all their fault.
Very convenient isnt it but works every time.
What else.. Lets see.. Loss of loved ones..That'd be a bugger. Then loss of my limbs or sight or worse still, should something happen to my loved ones..oh oh..scary thoughts..Not sure how would I survive this...
Well, all this does tell me something. That these are the things that really matter. Rest is bollocks..

Is the glass half full ?

Am I am optimist, pessimist or someone in between ?
I cant answer that honestly. I know too much about me, I think, or do I ? Well, if I cant answer this then who can ? And why do I want to know in the first place anyways?
Is there a better type, that is say If I turn out to be a pessimist, should I work on my attitude and reactions to become an optimist ? Anyways, there is a always a possibility that whatever folks perceive of me, thats not what I really am.
Whatever it might be, dont you guys think, it would be quite interesting to know that ! Or to find if my perception has changed over the years in my friends minds.
At the end of the day, who gives a bollocks anyways !
I am what I am :)

Is it Actually that Bad ?

Woke up late just before 12. Now thats one sureshot way of spoiling you day and consequently your weekend. By the time you brush your teeth and get something down your throat, its past one.
and before you know it, its "Hello monday".
But not today.
I am going to Sikh Gurudwara as soon as I shower. I enjoy visiting it and not just for free food. There is something there which I have never found in hindu temples. Or maybe I have never really looked.
And today is also the day when Scotland face Wales in Six nations Rugby. Not sure why am I bothered though. God, I have been here too long !!
Was speaking to my french team leader on friday afternoon. You know when weekend is so close you can touch it and generally everyone is in a good mood. Some things are the same everywhere, I guess. Anyways, we got talking about being in a different country than your own and where did we see ourselves in few years time. It was then I started speaking about back home. Bit passionately I guess. And then she remarked, "Mohit, why are you in this country again !!"
Not going to answer it here ..

Two years !!

Thats how long it has taken me to start this. Why is it when everyone just goes for it, I only "think" about it.
I think (here we go again) I was born this way. Not a man of actions, you might say! Someone who looks for excuses. Ach well, better late than never, Mr Watson eh..
And while I am writing this, there is slight pain in my spine and back. And if you had told me about your bad back, trust me I know all the answers. Only when it comes to doing the same things for me, I cook up some excuse about being too busy with schtuff.
Btw where do I look up for how long a post should be?

Am I doing it for me or for someone else? Or is it actually one of those things about letting go, unleash your creativity, blah blah.. Or is it as americans say, "Do it because you CAN" !! I think its time to stop, create another entry and moan about something completely different. Great.. I am so at home..hehe